Pure Grace

Have you ever felt being at the bottom? You tried to climb up but seems like all your efforts are wasted; Nothing’s working! And there, you are stepped on by someone because you are at the bottom; Is there any way to climb up? I looked at the sky but seems like my plea wasn’t heard. So, I enjoyed myself singing and dancing along; I thought this was my time to chill at the moment; There, I was stepped on once again! Come on, Is there any way to climb up? Still, no one answered but this time I was pushed by someone. I haven’t seen it coming and I almost tripped off; Angry and fed up but there’s nothing I can do about it; I must think first before I respond, drastic reaction may cause me more harm; I waited and waited but nothing happened, I wasted more time. Is there any way to climb up? I tried and tried a hundred times but all efforts are in vain. I stopped and paused, I started asking myself. Why do I want to climb up? I swiftly replied, So I won’t be stepped on by others; But do I ev...

  I dare you not to speak a word; My mind tells me to torn your body into pieces; I wish to jump under water; So, not to hurt anyone when I explode. Do not light the ticking time bomb; Or we will both be doomed; Be my guest if you want to do so; Don’t tell me I did not warn you. Ready set go, coldness vacuumed my soul; Just a sec, tinny sound tingling my ears; Wait a minute, commanding voice overruled; 5,4,3,2,1 you became ashes now you're gone.

People blaming one another; Casting stones to the other; Weeping candles from a brother; Don't you care or even bother? Save yourselves cover nostrils; Wash your hands when taking meals; Bleach the floor and leave your heels; Keep your distance from all peers. Are your crazy? You are lazy! Asking food when you get hungry; Could've saved when you had plenty; Now you're begging out for money. We worked hard to have a life; Yet circumstance wasn't right; Can't you see we had the light; When the season was so bright. Now, who's to blame with this? People damn when out of bliss; Hatred spreading like a mist;  Others fight and clench a fist.

Tik tok, tik tok, the clock sounded the same the whole day; The same pattern repeatedly done each day; Do you still remember what day is today? Or you just go with the flow day by day?

Silence has been mistaken for peace or emptiness; Calmness despite troubles or absence of chaos; Going while seeking or doing what is convenient; Reaching peace while suffering emptiness. Smile hides the deepest pain; You're not being pretentious, you're being courageous; Facing a battle requires a tough heart and not those coward feet; Pull yourself together, and throw your heart once again. A cheerful smile, a simple tap to lift a friend; A drop of kindness, a warm hug to bless a soul, A caring touch, a mindful word to console a heart; My dear friend, you can do this! You are not alone.

The moon setting the ambiance, yet I don’t feel at ease; Moonlight’s mesmerizing glare, shadows creeping still; I can feel your presence, though darkness hides the trail; Do not conceal the evil, in the beauty of your glaze.

Everybody likes Christmas, do you agree? Happy faces shouting, we are one! They say it means thanksgiving to the one who died on the cross; Get together with family and friends, be loved and give love; Sharing gifts, hugging more, doing kindness to one another; Indeed, Christmas is a happy season; That's why, everybody likes Christmas.

Not everybody will stay. You do not hold grudges when people leave, You just remember what good they did when you were together. People change and that's inevitable. You just have to move on and grow in separate ways. What makes me puzzled is that people acting weird, saying the exact opposite of what they really feel. Poor thing, say what you want instead of hiding your thoughts with sugar coated speech. Please stop it! Didn’t I tell you to say it boldly? I do not care if I’m no longer your cup of tea, just do not pretend to me. You can freely walk away, I will not hold you back. I do understand. . . You need not to do anything for me, just leave good memories be.

Cuts and bruises are still there, Grieving heart still weeps, Deafening silence overtakes the ground, Hushing wind comforts the soul. How do you face a mourning soul? Can you still smile at a dying bone? Would you still believe that everything will be ok? After you said that it is all gone. Then hope finally comes in, Not a guaranty to return what is gone, But a light that will tell you to keep moving on, You will be alright, please hold on.

It’s been a while since I talked to you; Haven’t heard your voice lately; You should’ve listen when I had so much to say; Now, I can’t find the words to say hello. I’m changing gradually, no longer the clingy girl you used to know; I can fix myself now, don’t need your back to lean on; As you can see, I’m still better even without you; I learned to endure, I learned to overcome. . . I can do it on my own. What I wanted was for you to hear me out and please no more than that; But I guess, that was too much to ask from you or it meant sharing the load with you; I can’t meet a person only during sunny days coz bad weather can be so unpredictable darling; I’m not ending anything, I just realized where to place myself.  But still, I can’t find the words to say hello. . . It’s when familiar people become strangers. Now, how do you say hello? 

She stabbed me. . . that's why I turned my back at her. I haven't done anything wrong but she insulted me in front of her new friends. A tail? Who? Me? Okay, let's end it now! I promised to forget everything about her. From now on, I won't feel anything for her, "Apathy". I will forget her existence. It was a year later when an awful news came. . .  She, she was seriously ill. Classmates and friends visited her. But I, I pretended not to hear a thing. I, I just kept my silence. Thinking, she pushed me to the other cliff and burned the bridge so I couldn't cross over. I could no longer be at her side. She disowned me face to face. I could no longer be part of her life, nor I can afford to show her how much I honestly care. So shut up! You must not entertain these thoughts.  On my way going to the classroom, someone recognized me and said, "Were you her close friend back then? Have you heard the news about her sickness?". I paused and cou...